Rest and Being

So far, this week has not turned out to be what I had planned for it to be. Marty and I came out here to camp in the woods, explore the stream, sit around a campfire and share ideas and insights. We've talked, we've shared, we sat at a campfire one night, the night we arrived and Mykyl had a fire started. Otherwise we've been staying at a motel, reading, driving to see a couple of friends from my school years. It's been rainy, humid, muddy everywhere; almost impossible to start a fire, clothing is damp, dogs are a couple of little messy mudballs. We had dinner with Mykyl and daughter last night (great meal and wonderful company), and saw an enormous number of pictures from Elizabeth's trip.

I had planned, by now, to be pretty much into a painting. Haven't even been able to get my painting supplies out. That's a big disappointment. Taking pictures for future paintings isn't much of an option since the rain and haze rather distorts the view. I would love to do some hiking, but mud isn't conducive to safety for Marty or the technological considerations of her prosthetic.

Yesterday I commented on Princess's blog, telling her that we are human BEINGS not human DOERS. Seems that the messenger is being called to her own truth. I've truly been in a much more contemplative state than I would have been had I been able to DO all the things I had wanted to do. That contemplative state has brought me to a new level of growth and understanding and that is very good indeed. I, too, tend to fill my time to the brim with tasks, lists and time-consuming activities that take me away from myself, my friends, Marty..... I, too, attempt to unconsciously - or consciously - steer away from spiritual aspects of my life that I truly want to address, but somehow, apparently find to be a different way to live than I might currently want to invest myself in. Then when I get all tangled up in the mess I inevitably make, I force myself to read what will challenge me to turn around, or dialogue with my inner parts that are always happy to help me get back on track.

So, this has been a week of struggling to DO the impossible and spend more time resting and getting reacquainted with my BEING the human I know I am. As I told Princess, the best way to not be affected by the unconscious is to become conscious of whatever has hold of you.

I would invite all of you to join me in BEING.

Nemaste my friends.

Dulcinea